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Rose's avatar

I feel that I understand you completely perhaps my words may not express that? I used to travel a lot, I felt free, that there was so much to experience and there was purpose in life to be found? Now all I do is cook, clean, wash, work I feel robotic and so tired, the job seems to be set on permanent repeat. The system seems to be pushing us all into a position of being a robotic person, without spirit. Now also being closer to 50 there is the whole new experience of being invisible. Like what could I possibly know about anything??? First I was just a girl who knew nothing, then I was to be a servant and mother, now I'm grey and of no use? Being alone seems to be the only solution, as changing others is never going to happen and I have always felt that and was very independent, just planned what I wanted and did it and didn't need others to help me. Something I plan on in the future when my kids are old enough, although becoming less of an option in the planned totalitarian system

We just got a puppy also and I forgot how much work they are, I thought of you Jill with two! Kids

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jill elizabeth's avatar

Thank you for sharing - Do you think if you didn't feel tired it would feel less robotic? I am finding the fatigue the worst part of everything and wonder if others feel that way? It helps me to know you are out there so glad you are here:)

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Rose's avatar

Well that's a good question? Probably yes, I mean when you have more energy tasks seem to not bother and you have more time to devote to the things that you do find fulfilling. I don't know why I lack energy, if it's because my time is filled with doing chores that don't matter to me and I'm bored with life, or it's my age. Then I think perhaps it's a global event, the sun etc? I mean everyone I know is tired and even talking to people from the northern hemisphere it's summer there and people are saying they are tired? I thought it might be winter here? I'm noticing that time seems to be speeding up, the weeks are flying past faster than I ever remember and it's a bit of a groundhog day experience. That's what feels robotic, and the days are filled with just keeping the treadmill going. It's getting harder and harder to find time to simply enjoy life! Hope that makes sense?

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jill elizabeth's avatar

Thank you for answering

It's feeling like I'm observing time moving faster and I am not able to keep up. Want to think more on that.🤔☺️

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Misty's avatar

As a wired for danger woman about your same age Jill I listened through this conversation and just nodded my head the entire time. I believe like you that we as a people will not get to that place of acceptance of others and coming together for the betterment of all. We have been on the opposite course of classical learnings and so subsequently people have dumbed down to the point of mentally and physically attacking others that are perceived to be different. Intellectually and emotionally smarter people have an innate calmness and acceptance of others and don't feel the need to beat the different person into compliance so they can preserve their false view of themselves as having the only right answer (that EGO gets in the way) and the humility it takes to close your mouth and open your ears is perceived as weakness no matter the gender. My Dad used to say, " you have two ears and one mouth, play the odds!" 🤣

Discourse is the only way to start turning society around and is a dying commodity in our world where being right for the sake of being right, through might, is the way of the future. Those in power have and are doing everything within their power to ensure that the population continues to have less and less true discourse because having people be more mentally and emotionally intelligent has overthrown tyranny again and again throughout history and they can't allow that to happen. This is so easily seen by the trajectory of what we/they allow our children to learn, by all the continuous propaganda to mislead and distract us and the assault on the freedom of speech. Those of us who can see beyond the smoke and mirrors are aging out of the fight and our youth have been so misled that they have them believing racism is all the world's ills. Those youth don't have the benefit of the older generations intellectual and emotional discourse to learn from and so they won't. It can only get worse from here. It seems like we live in a world not too different than Max Headroom depicted back in the 80's. You are not alone, but there are fewer of us left out there I think and to your point it is easier to withdraw from a society that doesn't have the ability to value others that carry a different message and bring a different skill to the problem. BTW I have heard of at least four other incidents like what happened to your dogs, so scary! Maybe there are breakaway collars for dogs like they make for cats. Have a great day mama and thanks for the convo.

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jill elizabeth's avatar

Thank you for the sharing and the 'i hear you' - I really needed that this morning, really:) It is different now in many ways but the generational divide is super scary as there is no memory of freedom, just comfort and convenience. No deep desire to explore the unknown, just watch it.

Glad you are here!

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Kat Mac's avatar

I love all the real lizards in my yard..life is life.... and I also love my Sonoran Desert Tortoise.. that I have been and accepted to look after.

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Kat Mac's avatar

there were two dogs in a fight at the wedding ... a white big dog and and great dane... I will never forget that scene... blood is on one man's hand. I watched it all ... I was watching as a girl ..I wasn't afraid. everyone else got super effected.

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Kat Mac's avatar

I have been in my home for a while... with no people the ones you listen to... You seem to be trying to figure it all out for us...just move forward... and don't listen to the obvious mean crazy diversives.. they get money off your distress. just take care of the animals.....

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jill elizabeth's avatar

Glad to hear from you ❣️

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Tine Pick's avatar

I do wonder how much happier and civilized we would all be without such an information overload. To focus on what is in front of us and those around us, without all the noise.

Glad the pups are okay. I had a similar thing many years ago. All's well that ends well. L&B

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James Moga's avatar

Hi Ms. Jill,

Thank Haven the dogs are well. (Pun intended)

I'm justified in being a subscriber, you've found and accepted your purpose. I can say that because I'm not you. Only outsiders can identify and see the image you project of yourself. Am I making sense?

Just like the questions about my own image is clouded by wishful hopes. Only others can truly see what value I represent.

Now, this is really not what you want, the first two comments are by men, AND two James' to boot.

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James Solbakken's avatar

Ironically funny you would mention Alex Jones and David Icke. I listen to you because you're an enjoyable and relaxing alternative to listening to them and other apocalyptic content all the time. Now I realize you're pretty apocalyptic your self. Must be why I like you so much. Also, I'm glad your dogs are OK.

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